Monthly Archives: November 2007

Guiltless

Sloppy guilt – a thing to be sorry for

live up to then let break down

Only down and bound mercilessly

Sadistic smile with ice eyes a portly paunch and musk

letting it happen, the mush that is

thinking somehow

perhaps

I deserved all of this

Following directly: a running me

looking back occasionally

Heart first running:

another mistake, another disaster with a similar smile

similar paunch and another series of similar encounters

These men with a need I thought would fill my own

A sudden change of heart to this:

a bursting bitterness, unconditional forgiveness

an overwhelming lack of ill will

merely,

a generous smile and arms that only know how to hold.

JMV 11.29.2007

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Digital Graveyard

It’s been awhile since I’ve written
longer still since I’ve checked up on the visible nobility
review: I was heavier then and not much else

repetitively I read about how to clean house better, quicker, with sass
each repetition slipping me further from the original truth:
I am here, oh, how I am here

All I see is where I’ve been
and all I want to see is where I’m headed next.

JMV 11.24.07

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