Monthly Archives: December 2008

How now: a release

More often than not I am
catastrophe careening toward oblivion –
suffocating and sensing myself drifting away
particle     by     particle.
In an attempt to stop
the surrender         I occasionally put a little effort in.
One step following the other,
occasionally I am awake and myself enough to put on the separate face –
the one I wear when I am most aware of you.
In my head / in my dreams
I am
of glass
angrily from the threshold of being.
Tumbling point over point toward everything I hate the most
and the state of being I most envy.
Often, it is the stillness that most frightens me. That and
the aching perception that perhaps I haven’t reached the level I hoped I’d reach.
Instead trembling close to the wire,
close to the nest of good enough dreams     while the ache in my fingers
just keeps aching.


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