I’ve finally started to take myself seriously as a writer, specifically poet. I’m learning to be OK with telling people that yes, I write and it’s sortof something I’m passionate about.
I’m learning to shut off the negative voice in my head that sends doubt down the length of my arms and into my fingertips. I’ve even started to ignore/delete comments from those that make a joke of it. I’m speaking specifically to Roses are Red, Violets are Blue, If you are a poet, then I am too. Yes, a family member made that comment on one of my FB declarations. I’m not opposed to constructive criticism, but I am not open to being belittled. Moving on…
Things in place for 2013 success:
- I’m rolling with the changes & subscribed to Duotrope. I’ve used it both for findnig places to submit my work and to find new literary journals to subscribe to. I can afford it, so there’s no use bitching about it. Plus, I’ll probably use it even more now that I’m more “invested”.
- Continuing the writing schedule that has worked for me during this year’s NaNoWriMo. I’m more of a nighttime writer, so I’m going to continue to make time for that. On December 1, we had company over for the first time in months and as we were returning to the house I thought, I feel like I should be doing something right now and was able to figure out what was missing fairly quickly.
- Participating in the rich poetry/creative writing atmosphere of the area. It’s there, I just need to break out of my box and particpate. Being that I’m introverted, the initial getting there and out of my comfort zone is especially hard. I’ve set the goal of gettin out at least 4 times next year.
- Lastly, I’m going to stop spending money on “hobbies” that don’t interest me. This seems a no-brainer, but for some reason I just couldn’t figure it out before and kept trying to “go all in” on things that don’t speak to my passion. I’ll sum it up in one sentance: I am not my job.
There will be more things, most likely, that will help me feel good about what I’m doing. The most important of all is that I’m going to keep at it, because it really is the one thing that keeps me happy and sane, mostly.